white walls

May 6, 2008

   My family thinks that I'm a psycho 4 yr old just because I don’t talk to people and I scream all the time but I speak to myself and all the people in my head that make me want to end up  in a black place that is all most thing is to me, but who really care about me or what I think and what I do all I am is a waste of space and I feel like I should just die just like what my brother and my friend did.

May 13, 2008

Today my horrible mother had taken me to a stupid mental hospital. My f*** gay doctor said, “the 27 she can come back to start her appointment here and all her drugs so she, not a psycho I mean a sweet little girl” what does he think I am a one yr old or something no I'm 4. This is what my horrible mother had to say when we went to the beach “Zoe doesn't do it” but I did it anyway this is what I said “ angles can fly so why can’t I“. And jump of the pear into the sea my dad came and got me from the sea. "I wanna die just let me go I hate you let me go I wanna die let me go I hate you so much let me go" I screamed.

May 27, 2008

No windows just white horrible white walls all I can see and all the doc keep saying I will ever see ugly white walls I'm hiding my drugs that they are giving me but I still feel weird I can’t remember my other sister or my horrible mother. I miss my friends.

July 14, 2008

My doc found my drugs so they are hiding it in my food but ... I haven’t been eating. I don't know how long I have been here it's like I have been for 400 days. my doctors came to see me and said "that they need the room I was in" he grabbed me "I wanna die just let me go I hate you let me go I wanna die let me go I hate you so much let me go" I screamed.